Fear
The Standard
The Standard Show me Your standards again,each time I grow fearfulof becoming the spinster aunt. Remind me that I am not lookingfor a warm body to prove my worth;I am looking for a partner. I am looking for someonewho will come with me to find Youin the quietest parts of ourselves. Prepare my heart only for a lovethat places...
Meta-tation
Meta-tation "Meta." When used as a prefix, it connotes a change in the position or state of something. Metamorphosis is a change from one thing into a completely new entity. Once before, the term "meta" came into my life to devastating effect. In 1999, when my father was diagnosed with colon cancer and the doctor told me it had metastasized, so it was...
Walk Away Gently
Walk Away Gently I cannot love him.Not the way he is asking me to.When I look at him,I see what a masterpiece You have made—An admirable mind,a kind spirit,a man deserving of genuine,unrestrained love.
Paradise Lost
Paradise Lost I have been sunk in a deep blue funk...all because of a dream. Like most dreams, it makes very little sense, especially upon close examination. But the feelings it evoked...those were real. Real enough to bring tears to my eyes at the memory. In the dream, I'd arrived at my alma mater in Indiana, a place I know from its frequent appearances in my dreams symbolizes peace to me. I was...
Family Complete
Family Complete I have already lost a baby. I have already lost holidays with a little one. I have lost peanut butter fingerprints in the kitchenand unidentifiable globs
Faith
Faith The other day I had a thought.The kind that weaves itselfinto your mind and takes hold.I realized that I amconstantly in fear.Afraid that I won't be able tomeet the needs of those I love,afraid that I'm not here for me.