Heidi Haller

I Am the Diamond

I Am the Diamond I met them in a restaurant,running late as usual.Taking too long to look perfect.Brand new outfit, hair just done.Must give them the impression,I've got it all together.But I still won't measure up.They who have better jobs,bigger houses, smarter kids,more loving husbands.Feeling jealous, I tell lies.

Concrete Walls

Concrete Walls Her letters arrive filled with anguish,apologies, and tear-stained pages.She speaks of isolation, little sleep,cold floors, cold showers, guards that hate.She begs forgiveness for what she's done;she asks for...

The Diagnosis

The Diagnosis She called today.There was something in her voice I never heard before.She had been to the doctor."A biopsy is needed, just to be sure," they said.I offered to drive; she can't be alone.I'll hold her hand and chatter away.A mind occupied cannot think.When her name is called, I'll hug her.She...

What's in it for Me?

What's in it for Me? This whole experienceI'm growing through,Your message I've received!I must give more to thoseI care for and love.As a parent, guide me to be more reassuring—praising, giving hugs and kisses,every day saying, "I love you."

Faith

Faith The other day I had a thought.The kind that weaves itselfinto your mind and takes hold.I realized that I amconstantly in fear.Afraid that I won't be able tomeet the needs of those I love,afraid that I'm not here for me.

The Shoemaker

The Shoemaker  You craft for us the most incredible pair of shoes,to help us walk through valleys,make our way along dark cavesor even the steepest of terrain.Our soles are made to withstandall the storms, fires and adversitythat gets placed in our path.One size does not fit all, for each is ...

Perfect Place to Be

Perfect Place to Be Family pictures line our shelves,pencil marks on the wall.They grew so fast,the years speeding by.Boxes stacked upon each other,bubble wrap and memories.Nothing left for me to donate;one last look before I go.

Job Over

Job Over We never saw it coming.He opened up his paycheck.Pink slip.Laid off.Shocked, we held each other.Nine months later, savings gone.A house we love, we must leave.Stack of billswe can't pay.I tell myself I can't do this.Falling to my knees, I sob.I need You more than ever;with You, I can face this.

Generation to Generation

Generation to Generation By divine selection we are born to our parents.You have allowed me to be a recipientof my parents extraordinary love.You, have weaved the fabric of theircharacter and values into my DNA.You have made them the yardstick by whichI measure myself.

A Stripe and a Star

A Stripe and a Star I am a stripe, I am a star, I am red, white and blue. Although we have never met, I will always pray for you. I wouldn’t know your name

Canine Connection

Canine Connection The truth is he picked me out.Lots of dogs to choose from,but his eyes said, "We belong together."Sitting in my lap, a resident of my heart.He gives me...

Tracking You

Tracking You There's a lesson in here somewhere.It's in everything I do,but camouflaged as it may be,I hunt for clues along the way.

A Marriage in Trouble

A Marriage in Trouble We sit in silence.I say nothing;he looks at the TVwhile I stroke the cat.The couch is small,but miles separate us.A stranger in my home.I rub my arm,desperately needingto feel touch.Please can't You healthis pain, his heart,my contempt, his indifference?

Tearing Down the Anger

Tearing Down the Anger I did it again. I yelled.After I promised You I would learn control,my anger took hold, escaped.I made them cry.Me who loves them more than life itself.How could I do that?You need to help me here or I will undo the few things I have done right.Please guide me to be a personwho speaks...

A Difficult Boss

A Difficult Boss What can I do?Too much is expected of me.Good is never good enough.I cry on the way to work,makeup ruined before I get there.My boss rages, unjustified.When I speak softly,Iím told to be less timid.When I speak up,I'm told I'm too aggressive.

Going Green

Going Green Yesterday it occurred to me,as I washed the same clothes,emptied the same dishwasher,and scrubbed the same kitchen sink, again:I am Your poster child for “going green”Because You recycle me!Cost saving and efficient, You help the earth by the energy I generate,by doing tasks in rep...

From the Inside to the Outside

From the Inside to the Outside Let me know Your will,Your hearts desire, and my own.Train me; prune me in the faith life,that I may bear fruit pleasing to You.Inside, show me how to love unconditionally,free to express Your wordsof comfort and tolerance.Let compassion overflow...

Soul Mate

Soul Mate I search for your facewherever I go.What do you look like?Surely, when our eyes meetthere will be this instantspark of recognition,allowing our destiniesto collide.Almost everyone I knowhas found their half-moon.When placed togetherthey form one perfect heart.Where is my soul mate,the one You have chosen

Divine Timing

Divine Timing I am so impatient,sighing and stomping around my room.I've been praying for a full year now.Do You give points for faithfulness?My numbers surely must impress.What can I do to rush Your answer:Light a candle? Or should I fast?

Unending Love

Unending Love Her hands can't thread a needle,reading now, a past pleasure.Walking has become a challenge,forgetting what she had to say.Failing eyesight, hands that tremble,limbs that won't cooperate,memories playing hide and seek.Will You prepare me,this child who has now

I Am Ageless

I Am Ageless What if there were no mirrorsupon which to reflect?Would I strive harder, laugh louder,believe in myself more?Would I embrace a world filled withendless possibilities? What if birthdays had no numbers,just a celebration of this life?I fear growing older.Will You help me with my struggle?Can You bring forward...

Through Your Eyes

Through Your Eyes Today, tomorrow, and always,may I be allowed to see everyoneI come in contact with,through Your eyes. When they speak out in anger,let me see the hurtthat consumes them;the anguish that shields their tears.Let me be the reassuring...

Rock Me Slowly

Rock Me Slowly Today, he closed the door behind him,All he wanted, in his suitcase.Upstairs, an empty bed once shared.A table holds the gifts I gave him,more closet space, I cannot fill.Still holding up, and holding on.I turned to see— he left our photos.The dam burst, tears f...

Immeasurable Grace

Immeasurable Grace Stopped at a corner in my carsaw a man holding a sign.It read, I'm hungry.You say, "Feed him"Walked by a womansleeping on a cardboard box.She needed warmth.You say, "Cover her" Crossed...

Less is More

Less is More I need permissionto be less than perfect,always aiming for the impossible. Driven to succeed,I'm missing all the special momentsthat make life worthwhile. When will I learnthe kitchen never stays clean?When will I appreciate aninterruption from a family member?

Sisters by Choice

Sisters by Choice She's the one I turn to in moments of sheer panic.A straight shooter who tells it like it is.She's the cavalry rushing in, saving me from myself,  talking me down from the ledge.Sheís the one...