Prayer for Depression

Day of Endless Failures

Day of Endless Failures I feel as if I have not doneone single thing right today.This day has been one failureafter another:failures at workfailures at homefailures with friends.

The Diagnosis

The Diagnosis She called today.There was something in her voice I never heard before.She had been to the doctor."A biopsy is needed, just to be sure," they said.I offered to drive; she can't be alone.I'll hold her hand and chatter away.A mind occupied cannot think.When her name is called, I'll hug her.She...

Your Ideal

Your Ideal Today I am stressed.Stressed to the pointof losing my way in life.It feels easier to sort out waysto be in my addictionthan to be stuckwithin my head today.Stuck in my headfeeling powerlessover what is happeningin my world.

Silent Tears

Silent Tears I cannot heal woundsthat are cleverly concealed.I cannot answer questionsdisguised behind painful smiles.I ask You for the gift of comforting words.Help me to demonstrate love,give hope and provide comfortin Your children's dark times.

Tail End of Hope

Tail End of Hope I cannot see the light at the end anymore.All I can see are the months stretched out before me,each one representing a new set of bills I cannot pay.I see no way out.All I see is deeper debt, deeper failure.I would love for You to guide me out of this.I am asking to be rescued.I am asking to see results.If...

This Coming Year

This Coming Year If hardships come my way,I ask for Your strength to keep strivingtowards what is good, right and honorable. If I encounter impossibilities,keep me depending on You,The Miracle Maker. If success is mine,remind me it is so because of You. I ask for...

Reflections

Reflections I look in the mirror and see a jumble of flaws.Please, help me see myself as You see me:Perfect. Whole. Capable.Help me to view my defects as potential,my awkwardness as a different beauty.Prevent me from self-harm,and from habits that bring me shame.Help me to accept myself as I am,just as You do,with limitless kindness and forgiveness.

Monday Blues

Monday Blues Chilly, cold, rainy morning I feel as awful as the weather.What a weekend to remember,but Monday is here...Help me complete this day.I pray for your strength.See me through the ever angry boss,who doesn't seem to care.Help me to see your hand in my every step,as you...

Searching for Light

Searching for Light I am lost on this dark day,far from the reality.I reach into the blank shadows,but am left wanting. I need the miracle of light.The darkness consumes me. Grant me calmness in this murky place.Give me strength to endure.Offer me Your unending love.Wrap Your arms around me. Protect me from this...

Radical Trust

Radical Trust It usually forces itself upon me,because I'd never choose the discomfortthat comes with beingcompletely out of control.I feel utterly humbled bythe hardness of circumstance,and depleted of the ability to fix it.But I trust in Your certaintyand become consumed by calmness.Ultimate reassurance cradles me.Radical trust in You changes...

Intervention

Intervention The pain never stops.It has become as much a part of meas my skin, my eyes, my pulse. Please, please intervene.Reunite my body with your blessings ...with joy and life and strength. Remind me what it was to be safe in my body. And when I cannot hear Your reminders,

Restoration

Restoration My body seems to have turned on me.My head is fluid.My stomach has flipped upside downand I've got a wretched caseof the shivering sweats.I am losing time to my sickness.My body is an enemy.Stay here with me, won't You? Lay a cool hand on my foreheadand soothe my...

Career Girl

Career Girl Everybody who works heretells a story with their clothes.Some have on suits; I’m wearing a uniform.Make me proud of myself and what I doas I go to work each day.Let the people I work withknow that I’m here to do a job,and I mean business.

Secular Songs

Secular Songs with Secret Spiritual Significance: Part One I have a confession. I love top 40 hits. Say what? Yes, I know, top 40 songs aren’t exactly the most praise-filled, godly, spiritual, (insert any generic religious adjective here), etc. Some are downright dirty and scandalous.

Remission

Remission The treatments are done.The doctors tell methat the cancer is in remission.Remission.Not gone.Not forgotten.Help me let go of the fearthat is waiting to pounce.Instead, help me feelthe sun on my face.

Every Woman

Every Woman Has a Story A few years ago, my mother had breast cancer. She went to an oncologist who suggested she have her lymph nodes removed. Having watched two of her sisters go through this battle, my mom knew that lymph edema (a terribly painful swelling) would be a side effect, and said she preferred to keep her glands. The doctor, a man, looked right at her and said, "When your cancer comes back, don't come crying to...

Sick and Tired

Sick and Tired The aches still ache.The pain hasn't gone away.I'm sick of myself.Tired of being focused day and night on how I hurt.On what I cannot do,and what the next test might show or cost.Help me look beyond myself.Teach me to realizethat no one woman can live with pain, alone.Share Your: Compassion,Love,Patience.

Breakdown

Breakdown The workplace is no place for tears.Yet despite knowing better,I crumbled like sand.Bring me back from the precipice.Help me win back the respectof my coworkers and bosses.Let me use my emotions as strengths,to find solutions and right inequities,so no one else need be crushedby the weight of their feelings.Let me be just in all my business...

Deflated

Deflated I am broken-hearted.My spirit is crushed.My energy depleted.I want to feel whole againto feel hope, not hurt.With Your grace and goodnesschange is near.

Make Life, Make Sense

Make Life, Make Sense Woke up and felt a fissurein my faith today,but there is just no wayto take my heart out of its groove. All is well.  There's always a way.Help me get past my need for everythingto make sense right now.

Why Am I Here?

Why Am I Here? I haven't discovered my purpose yet.My friends are so busy with their own.They seem content while I am forever searchingfor that one thing that will fill my being.You have a plan for me.May I only receive your will in my mind.

Wholeness

Wholeness Thank You for this day of exhaling,of unprecedented blessingand finally relief.This is the day the wound started healing.The moment the rift began to mend.The storm has passed and we still have each other.

A Marriage in Trouble

A Marriage in Trouble We sit in silence.I say nothing;he looks at the TVwhile I stroke the cat.The couch is small,but miles separate us.A stranger in my home.I rub my arm,desperately needingto feel touch.Please can't You healthis pain, his heart,my contempt, his indifference?

Living Fully

Living Fully I feel helpless today.I feel that everything I want is impossible.I am bound to suffer.If I trust You to provide mewith all that I need to live fully—will a miracle happen?I let go.Today, I make way for miracles.  

Forget-Me-Not

Forget-Me-Not

Feeling Lonely

Feeling Lonely My mornings of sorroware shrouded in pain.This "ideal" lifestyleis crumbling into dust.Hope is shattered.Life has implodedinto the sands of time. Tears like crystal ball snowflakesfleck with happinesstwirling with the forcesof false emotion,as myriad feelingsreflect on mirrorsdulled by...

Train Wreck

Train Wreck Someone I love is buriedbeneath fear and paralysis.She has forgottenhow gloriously You made her.And I seem to have forgottenthat Your love for herfar exceeds my limited vision. Forgive me for the many yearsI've rushed in to do Your job.My trust in You has beenwavering and impatient.

Journey = Destination

Journey = Destination Let me ask an unusual thing:Bless the people with their cranky pants on this morning.The ones who got off on the wrong foot today.Who woke up

Prosperous Soul

Prosperous Soul Remind me,when my transmission diesand the numbers in my checking accountturn red,that I am blessed—that this phase of my lifeis nothing short of a miracle.Without financial disaster,I may not discover my own creative potential.I may not learn to simplify.I may not see the love that surrounds me,the open hearts...

Beginning

Beginning I'm beginning to understandthat in silence I am drawn to You,that my unanswered questionsmay cause me to seek You more,know You more, trust You more. I'm beginning to graspthe significance of pain in my life,that my heartachemay cause me to understandYour children more,love them more, support them more.

Road Map

Road Map Today I feel lost,so I turn to You for direction.My heart is a compass.Set me to true north.Lead me where I need to go.Be my guide.Take me with you,for you know the roads.I know the climb will be arduous.But when I get there,oh, the view will be worth it!

Doubt

Doubt Be with me.Not just in cloisters,clouds and the parted sea.Walk with me.Reassure me that theroad is only unfamiliarthe first time I’m on it.Speak to me concretely.Take me past the metaphorsand middle menand tell me why I doubt.Reach out Your handto lift me back upwith Your graceand complete m...

Showing Up for Life

Showing Up for Life All I want to do today is eat and drinkand lie numb on the sofa.I do not want to think about my obstacles. Today it feels easier and safer to give in to my addiction.Please provide me with the courage to fight my disease.Give me the strength to show up for my life. I have faith in Your presence and knowin...

Danse Macabre

Danse Macabre It gets better.Stay in between my synapsestap it out in Morse codeif need be.It gets better.Take me outside to lookat the birds flying in unisontaste the salty air by the boundless oceanfeel the sand between clenched toes. It gets better.