Self Esteem

Reflections

Reflections I look in the mirror and see a jumble of flaws.Please, help me see myself as You see me:Perfect. Whole. Capable.Help me to view my defects as potential,my awkwardness as a different beauty.Prevent me from self-harm,and from habits that bring me shame.Help me to accept myself as I am,just as You do,with limitless kindness and forgiveness.

Ever-Present

Ever-Present I lost my nerve todayand You led me back to it.What would I do without Yourever-present support?Thank You for never,tiring    tiring     tiring of my repetitivepleas and failings.

Sacred Agent

Sacred Agent I ask that you make me Yours—not only your child,Your wayward lamb—but also Your instrument,Your agent of change.Teach me to surrender not to the darkness,but to the light of possibilityas Your strength sustains me,and Your wisdom guides me. For once, I...

The Truth About Ugly Pumpkins

The Truth About Ugly Pumpkins I love pumpkin: pie, seeds, bread, and soup. Just like the ugly scarecrow and the ugly gargoyle, the ugly jack-o-lantern was designed to "ward off evil spirits." I always thought this was a hilarious approach: ward off evil with an ugly decoy! ...

I Am the Diamond

I Am the Diamond I met them in a restaurant,running late as usual.Taking too long to look perfect.Brand new outfit, hair just done.Must give them the impression,I've got it all together.But I still won't measure up.They who have better jobs,bigger houses, smarter kids,more loving husbands.Feeling jealous, I tell lies.

Balance of Love

Balance of Love I know You designed me for this—To be self-aware,self-soothing, self-knowledgeable.Like all of Your cleverly-crafted creatures,I am designed to protect and sustain myself.But please help me get this thing under control.I'm losing command of this mechanism,swinging dangerously close to self-everything,losing c...

Indulging in Me

Indulging in Me Why am I fighting for a behaviorthat I know deep downwill not serve me?I am thinking of alcoholand whether I should use it again.Help me to make the choice not to pick up.So I can use that timeto discover how I want to be.And I will instead indulge in me.  

Raising the Bar

Raising the Bar Today is the day of absolute abandon.Blessings beyond belief.New perspectives. Ancient traditions.Friends I haven't met yet.Listening deeply. Feeling fully.This is the day I say yes to everything.Life, love, risk, being in the moment.Surround me with the sound of church bells,voices chanting, and children...

The Process

The Process I think of myself as diamond,perhaps pure gold.Maybe my life is an antique vase,unique, precious, and rare.Consider the point it which they all began.Think of the process each went through.Each test of life has shaped me.

Big Mouth

Big Mouth Silence is not goldenwhen it must be broken;when it ought not to exist.To deny praise to a child,for fear of spoiling him.To withhold best wishes from someone,of whom you are jealous.To keep back from contradicting,those others spreading malicious lies.To decline to give advice,for fear of being drawn into the maelstrom.To...

It's All About Me

It's All About Me Confession time ladies. I stand before you all today (metaphorically, of course), and I admit it. I am self-centered. Horribly, terribly, embarrassingly self-centered. I am capable of caring about others' lives. I am also decent at putting things into perspective, at recognizing—at least cognitively—that most things are not about me and that others generally do not suffer a wild need to know what I had for lunch and how I felt...

Three Ways to be Perfectly Satisfied

Three Ways to be Perfectly Satisfied Satisfaction comes from three places: your mind, your body and your soul. 1. You can be satisfied intellectually. Let’s say you learn something new – how wonderful to finally get it! Maybe you’re challenged on a long-held belief. The arguments and discussion from a different point of view,...

How Many Marriages End in Divorce?

How Many Marriages End in Divorce? Big doings in the U.K., William and Kate announced their upcoming marriage, and re-ignited Princess Di fever once again. For women of a certain age who loved Princess Di, getting ready for a new pretty young lady to join the royal family, is a bittersweet moment. “There were three of us in this marriage, so it was a bit...

Me in You

Me in You In the mirror, I see imperfections.I see skin not clear enough,a body not fit enough,a brain not smart enough,a wit not quick enough,a worker not strong enough,a person not valuable enough.Help me to see You in me,To see Your holy work exude from my being.You created me, and since You're divine and all,I've got to think that You didn't...

Recognition of Beauty

Recognition of Beauty I won't spend one more day in fear.Today I will not be limited bynegative thoughts that gobble up the dayand don't allow me to recognize the beauty around me.Today I will be freed of unrealistic expectationsthat lead to disappointment and self-pity.

Drugstore Make-Up

Drugstore Make-Up It was my first time. The very first time I paid to check baggage on an airplane. I can usually get away with a carry-on. This weekend I was travelling to attend a wedding— that meant a fancy dress and lots of other stuff to help me look bee-u-tee-full for all of the festivities. As I was packing, I threw my...

Divine Timing

Divine Timing I am so impatient,sighing and stomping around my room.I've been praying for a full year now.Do You give points for faithfulness?My numbers surely must impress.What can I do to rush Your answer:Light a candle? Or should I fast?

What If?

What If? You probably think I should be over this by now.A lifetime of temptation, giving up, starting again—follow me into the turmoil of my mind. My body will never be what I want it to be.It's too late for my version of perfect.Age eliminates firm arms, slender waist. Truth broadcasts itself through my conscience.What is left? Can I set new goals?Eliminate old thought...